Title: History Is All You Left Me
Author: Adam Silvera
Rating: 4.5 stars
I have all this history with you, Theo, but he has pieces of your puzzle that would destroy me if I ever had to put them together, and yet I still want them.
Four boys caught up in a complicated circle of love. When Theo dies Griffin, Jackson and Wade lose an important part of their live. They deal with grief all in their own way, but find unexpected company during the process. Their history is complicated and when this entwines with the present unexpected and dangerous truths begin to surface.
The story is told by Griffin. He tells the story to Theo who died during a drowning accident (This is no spoiler). Griffin tells about the history he had with Theo who was for a long time his best friend and later became his first love. The way Griffin tells the story is raw. It’s told in the most humanly, heartbreaking, complicated and brutally honest way. During his grieving process he has to cope with his OCD which gets worse. His seventeen and has to deal with a far to heavy weight that a boy should face at that age.
The way Silvera writes about grief and the small heartbreaks of love is something that doesn’t all come from imagination. This felt personal. Something close to his heart.
I braced myself when I came to the end of this book. I cried and thought a lot about what happened during Griffin’s story. It’s a story that leaves you questioning important parts in your life. The way you look at things. The last time I felt like this was while reading A Monster Calls by Patrick Ness. It’s not that Silvera intentionally writes these stuff to crush your feelings. It all lies in the little things that happen during the story. Relationships end, but love doesn’t. Sometimes it’s about what they feel but not necessarily put into words.
I feel like a rock being skipped through the ocean—pain, relief, pain again, relief again, eventually destined to sink.
Luckily the story isn’t filled with only grief and the sad part about love. It’s funny, uplifting and warming. Silvera writes in a wonderful way about LGBT+ characters. No homophobia or terrible events about coming out. This story is filled with supportive parents and friends, intimate scenes without shame. Gay and bisexual represented in a beautiful way, which I am really happy about.
One night we argued for a solid hour over who would win in a duel between Lord Voldemort and Darth Vader. I’m surprised we’re still friends.
History is All You Left Me is smart, tender and raw. The characters were very relatable for me. I could find pieces of myself in every one of them. I recommend this book to those who love YA, romance and a great story about LGBT+ characters.